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I am I...
Do not change me
Condemn me, nor put me down.
Accept me for what I am.
No...you need not agree with me
But accept me.
For I am total in being.
I have my Faults, I have my guilts
But that is who I am.
Perfect I will never be.
Allow me to be uninhibited.
Do not pressure me into feeling
What I do not feel.
Accept me when I am flying high
As I have accept you
When you wee flying high.
Do not put me down...
Nor make me feel unhappy about me.
I am I...
And I like being what I am...
Me.
Welcome to my world of thoughts.
Alone
Sunday, July 16, 2006
8:38 PM
This week during school days were very busy. I had to do my IS projects and submit report cause datedue was coming very soon. Therefore i had no choice but to burn midnight oil and finished it. Days were quite happy but not for weekends.
I had no idea why I've feeling extremely low for weekend. Maybe i predicted that my weekends would be alone at home. Unexpected, friday i was not at home. I lied to my mum that i went to school and hand up project before going out. However i went to take 161 to woodland then transfered mrt to ajuned ( i do not how the correct spelling). The whole juroney took 2 hours. Then i met my classmate for lunch at her workplace then i took bus to somerset. From there i transfered mrt to PS and sat down for coffee at starbucks. I sat there alone, my mind was blank and i kept smoking while drinking coffee for 3 hrs. During that 3 hours of rotting alone, i made a phone call which lasted for around an hour. Then i went to buy some stuff at watson and went finally back to home. I rested for a while and went out again.
My saturday was a quiet and lonely one. Same went for my sunday. No one was at home except me. As time passed, i felt worst. I did not know what wrong with me - why i am feeling like that? All i knew was i felt pain in my heart. Luckily i had my bear to accompany me. When i see her at least i dont feel so alone.
Ever since i realized that i missed my chance for happiness, my world had never been the same. The clear sky had covered by dark clouds and no matter how much i reached out for the happiness, i wouldnt able to. There nothing for me to do. I really wished i got a hug from him.
I wished ... this coming week will not be the same. :)
Béseme... Toqúeme... Siéntame ®
